Yep, I’m moving again~ this time to my raspberry pi!
so here is the new url for my blog: blog.junzy.tk or junzy.tk/blog
its likely that I won’t change already XP, in fact, even if I do, I will make sure that junzy.tk will point to the correct address :P
not sure if I said before, but I bought a Raspberry Pi which is essentially a mini-computer that has a 700mhz processor and 512mb RAM. anyway so I got a free junzy.tk domain and I’m gonna get a junz.ml, junzy.ml, junming.ml domain when it becomes free on 16 May I think July. yea geek stuff.
but here’s the bonus for ppl who read my blog (: if you need to bypass the school network or any other network, just connect to the proxy server junzy.tk port 8080 and you are good to go (:
im probably gonna move my blog there too. (:
yea so I’m sitting here alone at SP Eleven Square waiting for my mum to fetch me.
mmm well, there are so many reasons for me to feel conflicted today.
1. well, I lost to RI in the semi finals by a mere second when they scored the final goal, winning 12-11. I know this was the best match I have ever seen my robot play, but it saddens me to think that we would lose to RI like this…
2. Because of this, we would be fighting ACSI tmr for the 3rd/4th placing. Well there is this new rule this year that robots cannot move out of the boundaries, doing so will result in a 1minute removal from game. This was the reason I worked so hard to perfect it last night, and I sort of managed too. JUST THAT, there are so many teams that can’t obide to this rule. In fact, its only RI and us that could actually make our robot stay with boundaries. So, the judges made it such that if an agreement was made, both teams would be able ignore that boundary rule and carry on with the game. We lost our first match with WRSS, but thats because our robots weren’t properly prepared anyway. Plus, we didnt play by the boundaries rule, so basically we gave them the advantage, but actually it doesnt really matter to me cause we still got through the preliminaries by beating ACS 11-9 without boundaries again. Heres the thing… ZX is too freaking kind -.- He thinks its morally right to play a “fair game” by allowing the opponent to play without boundaries since they cant do otherwise. So in tmr’s 3rd and 4th placing match, he intends to let them play without boundaries. But I really disagree since I have always been this cunning person that is super competitive. but now I’m considering a little, since to me 3rd or 4th doesnt mean anything. I want 1st and only 1st, no less. Technically Im sure we are at least 2nd if we played by round robin, but sadly we had to fight RI in a kick out match. plus if ZX werent so nice and argued his way through Im sure we would have gotten more goals and won RI… so heres a super confliction. IDK if I’m happy to “win” 3rd/4th. TBH, I think I’m just neutral, like its nothing significant anyway…
Okay apart from sad stuff, this came as surprising news to me that ZX had a GF! haha so she came after the day to go for dinner with him, which I find really sweet aww. which explains why I’m waiting here alone >< anyway I’ve been wanting to blog since Blocks but didnt have the time cause of my raspberry pi computer XP and robocup.
anyway, Im really tired today, survived with 1 hr of sleep. I’ll probably feel better after I bathe/sleep. so bye for now~
Maths was really depressing today…
Well, for one, I have never not finished the revision package before a major exam, which come to think of it is just BT1 and Promos.
Nevertheless, I felt so unprepared for the whole paper.
unprepared + tough paper = formula to failure…
I counted around 41 marks gone (if every question that I didn’t get the answer was completely wrong, which is likely)… meaning I have a 9 mark leeway for careless mistakes if I even want to pass… I know so many people are ranting about maths, idk if they are really that screwed or not. but I do find it slightly comforting to see that people on twitter find the paper hard and it is not just that I was unprepared…
Well I am really disappointed with myself for not revising enough, I think I really worked quite hard this holidays, but clearly its not enough, I know this myself. However, my mum just keeps on telling me I have been slacking and all which isn’t helping. I know I slack at times, but thats how it works for me. Slack a little then study. I feel like I have really tried decently hard enough, and I would expect decent results but this just shook my confidence.
on a slightly less related note, I always think that parents should aim to be best friends with their children, only then the children would want to confide in them. obviously I wouldn’t confide in relationship stuff with my parents (although I hope I could). but now even my logic in studying methods(which is not even a secret) cant even be voiced out freely. I want to talk it out and feel better. yet, its not helping at all, but it doesn’t make me feel worse, I guess I am just not that type of person to be affected by that, but it really saddens me that I was just trying to make conversations and say out my feelings yet get shot down… Do I need to show that I am super affected by Maths today before you will show me concern? then again the concern is for me to not screw up bio. if maths was the last paper and I was affected badly, I think you will just let me emo my day away…
argh I sound like I am mad at my mum but I’m not actually. I’m just slightly more emotional today thanks to Maths.
and now, on to bio for round 2 of feeling crappy.
Since the start of this year, I think I have accumulated a lot of things to reflect about but never had the time and mood to do so.
the long bus ride home today, somehow got me into the correct mood and the correct music playing for it. so yep.
reflecting is really therapeutic, but it also makes me sad.. I realised, I care a lot about people’s feelings and what they think of me. and that really shapes my emotions, which just means my emotions are highly affected by others.
actually, I don’t think what I said is 100% true also. Function + Context = Value. so yea, the context changes, value changes.
what am I thinking? I’m so tired I’m not thinking properly
I bloody swear. I will get A for Chemistry. It’s a promise to myself. Since this year, I really haven’t put in much effort for chem, and even if I did, it was very last minute. This can’t do. I know I have disappointed Ms Soh countless times and I feel terrible. Not this time, I gonna make sure I don’t.
so BUCKLE UP JUNMING GO MUG UR GUTS OUT.
now that performance tasks and other random test have no weightage, I feel like I am less motivated to study and this is really bad…
need to start my mugging mode before it’s too late
I’m feeling pretty conflicted myself… I don’t know what I’m doing, yet I know the consequence of my actions and I know what I’m doing. doesn’t make sense right? I’m confused with life o.o
so today, we had this little worksheet to do during CT session. It’s pretty amusing!
Basically there are like 30 questions where there are a pair of choices each. So I’ll have to select either of the pair that I prefer, then tabulate the scores. so here are my results!
A: 6 – Words of Affirmation
B: 9 – Quality Time
C: 3 – Receiving Gifts
D: 5 – Acts of service
E: 6 – Physical Touch
I have no idea why, I counted and counted and only found 29 instead of 30. oh well. btw the max score for each section is 12.
so, I think it’s pretty accurate I guess? I’m really a simple person I think. I like simple quality time just doing nothing but talking and/or hugging XP yea I’m quite a touchy person but its not that overwhelming. I like to be appreciated as well since I like to do things for people. seems like a pretty accurate judgement of me (:
the only thing is, I feel that receiving gifts should have been lower! Well, I don’t really feel loved when receiving physical gifts, and I would rather prefer acts of love or things with a lot of thought put into it. but of course who doesn’t like gifts! I mean I like gifts, but I won’t feel loved because of it. haha and most of the time, physical things that I really want are too expensive to be gifts XP eg. Nexus 4/7, SGP iPhone Bumper, MacBook Pro Retina, MacBook Air, techy stuff XP soo anyway…
we played a little game after that, everyone had to go in front and on the count of 3, the class would shout A-E, depending on what they think you are. how disappointing that everyone chose E for me >< But I do admit, I think E is the second most important thing after B :D haha
oh well it was really fun, but it would have been better if this CT session were on Valentine’s Day LOL
pretty much the most awesome vday I ever had :D even though it wasn’t very valentinish!
never thought that Valentine’s Day could be so fun even when I’m not attached or whatever :P I have always thought that giving gifts to the same sex is pretty lame and stupid, which is why I always laugh at my sis giving presents in NY or in HC! anyway it’s a totally different story today ^^
SOOOOOooooooo. let’s begin with a quick recap! Reached school, called Mr Heng to open the classroom door, quickly stuck the roses onto the whiteboard and wrote “HAPPY ♥ DAY” (barely visible due to lack of proper markers ): ) on the whiteboard.
Rushed back down for assembly. The girls were supposed to give keloy the trollish balloons but decided not to and waited for maths lesson instead :P HAH. DOUBLE SURPRISE UPCOMING ^^
anyway we decided to walk REALLY slowly to the classroom just so we would be behind all the girls when they enter the classroom. BUT… for unknown reasons NgTC decided to be early today lol. so we couldn’t really see the initial reactions of the girls, but nevertheless, they were touched and surprised which made me so DAMN HIGH the whole day!!! HAHA tbh, i posted all the pictures on FB/twitter/instagram in hopes that other class girls will see so they can be jealous HAHAHA. EVIL MUCH :D
then the girls decided to leave the roses on the board while NgTC continues teaching and writing on the board while avoiding the roses. LOL?! 17 roses on the whiteboard and he still can teach with a stone face. (Y)
also, somewhat reluctantly, we sent them a video of us “dancing” to 对面的女孩看过来 but it was really cui >< well, it still had the effect of being funny and touching the girls anyway :D #missionaccomplished
after maths, COMPUTING CANCEL SOMEMORE :D he must have went for some date hahaha :P so 3.5 hours break (Y)
anyway the rest of the day was just lessons, but it was more interesting than normal :P OH RIGHT, cause during Maths lecture I posted on HCJC confessions “To the Apollo faccomm guy from 12S71 carrying 5 cute balloons, I want to be your 6th crush ♥ will you be my valentine? ;) ^^” sadly, most of the likes are from our class ): not troll enough I suppose.
GP lesson was still quite interesting since she showed use videos from the Noose, but I would gladly turn off her “commentary” heh.
After school, pool with oxy and ec, self-explanatory, it was obviously fun. ^^
anyway besides all the awesome events that happened, there were many other reasons that made me so happy too :P
#1: accomplishment in making the girls touched ^^
#2: accomplishment in making other classes’ girls jealous ^^
#3: multiple sweet cravings satisfied (;
tmr will be POP, hope it’ll be fun and cool!
on another note:
I don’t understand why you choose to stick on when you practically complain about it everyday… I still care a little so please don’t do this to yourself…
that’s the reason why, and that’s the the reason why not
recall how people would say if you have never dreamt of being a star before then you are weird. Okay fine not the exact phrase but you get what I mean.
So actually, every now and then when I watch some video/live performance of someone singing or something, especially YouTube artists, I would just imagine myself to be on stage and singing with that powerful voice. I really like singing as most of you should know, just that I’m not good at it >< well, at least I can sing without destroying people’s ears so I guess that’s not bad haha (:
So here comes Hwa Chong Talentime. Well, I would be lying if I said I didn’t think of joining. Problem is, I’m pretty sure I’ll get stage frights. And I’m quite sure I can’t win. Contrary to what people think, that joining competitions is for the fun, experience and not about winning, I hate losing haha. So nevermind, I’ll just be a champion of singing in my bathtub XP
it’s another year and the probably only thing really different is how I will write 2013 on my notes and tutorials lol.
Anyway I shall take the time to appreciate the year that has past.
January: Thank you for the amazing start to the year, beautiful “new” school, new friends, really close friends.
February: Thank you for bringing me so much joy, laughter, fun, love and making me a truly happy guy. Also, thanks for the newspaper coverage although Noted is pretty much dead now.
March: Pretty much the same as February, although busier, I still throughly enjoyed doing those work.
April: Still the same, really enjoyable month, despite the increase in workload. Thank you for IDA JC Award as well (:
May: Really devastating month, I don’t know what to thank about since I don’t think I remember anything else that happened that month.
June: Thanks for the trip to Silicon Valley again, helping me to relief some of the pain, and finding out this really interesting fact that I don’t know if I should take it as an insult or compliment. Thank you for the nice friends that I can really talk to and for not making me screw up blocks too.
July: Nothing significant happened as far as I can remember oops.
August: Thanks for the CCA Leaders Camp which helped me to patch things up and discover more about myself.
September: AWESOME. AWESOME. AWESOME. Class Running Man was epic fun, NJRC was epic win (literally! :D )
October: I survived promos!
November: I survived PW!
December: Thanks for a somewhat enjoyable OCIP trip, awesome chalet with S71, amazing daydreams, guys sleepover. I guess I still have to be thankful that grandpa passed away peacefully and timely.
So in conclusion, thank you everyone for 2012, and hope for an awesome 2013.
Looking back at my 2012 New Year Resolutions:
seems like I somewhat accomplished #1, somewhat failed #2 :P, accomplished #3, and #4 never came. hehe.
and my 2012 New Year Wishes:
2 or more close friends (or friends that I would allow to read my blog XD)
0 enemies or number of close friends/friends lost
1 amazing year (:
2nd tag/category of this post if you get what I mean XD (too embarrassed to say too)
#1 is accomplished :D, #2 failed… #3 should be accomplished, #4 somewhat :P
so now 2013 New Year Resolutions:
Usually I’m not the type to celebrate new year’s day or anything. But there is even more reason to not celebrate this year.
Nevertheless, we have the company of family and relatives this year so it wouldn’t be as boring as the past few years.
Anyway, not trying to ruin the mood or anything, so here’s wishing everyone a happy new year! Hope you have a great year ahead.
goodbye 公公,
You are strong and loving even when you were ill.
You never want to burden anyone and rather be burdened by others.
I just want to say thank you for everything, your love, your personality and all.
Sorry for not being with you during your final moments.
Love you and rest in peace.
